Fun vs Commitment

I do not know where to begin.

Seriously.

Let me just say it though. Till when do we know we are finally ready to commit? When having fun is all that we keep and trying to do to stimulate our tedious life. After all, fun does ensuing happiness, right? Can't fun eventually turned into something significant? Will it be fair to women when men are having so much fun, they can break out of the game anytime and anyhow they want? Do women give in simply because we are too hopeful and just need to depends on someone sometimes?

hmmm...

I don't have the answers. Do you?

A fantasy... :-)

Michael Buble Lyrics
Me And Mrs Jones Lyrics

The fattening situation

I don’t know what to do. Felt like screaming my lungs out, but my heart insisted I kept them all inside my head. This feeling tortured me in sabotaging my body every minute starting by a more regular visit to the kitchen, not to cook for the family, more like indulging my stomach even when it didn’t sing for a refill. After more junk food after another, slouching into the very comfortable couch of mine and a remote control in my hand, I, myself have made the whole situation looks and sounds even more sinful. Where is me who have been so self-conscious and will do something about it?

Definitely a turn-off. I am so disgusting.

Trivia Madness

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Being Thirty, a Muslimah, and to be in a Relationship

It's that feeling again; me hitting the big 3 0 and unsure about things to come. What are my security, my career growth and most important thing how do I able to find love again (that's important?), well, since mom nagging me more about it now. This thing about hope, dream & relationships do keep me wonder all the time and bore readers to death! Anyway, at the time when I feel at the lowest about relationship, I came across yet another Oprah's show that again succeed to inspire. It has made me feel embarrassed and relieved at the same time.

The Oprah Winfrey Show titled "Thirty-something in America " is about women in their 30s with 8 children or no children after 7 years of marriage or minority in America etc. And then there is this one Muslim woman clad in a full attire as a Muslim, surprisingly looked like in a baju kurung and a veil, Mubarakah Ibrahim is the owner and head trainer of BALANCE fitness Studio for women in New Haven, CT where she offers fitness education, personal training and group fitness classes for women. Yes, she is fitness instructor who clad in full dress as a muslim Woman. So, nothing can stop Muslim or Muslimah from doing anything in life these days, as long it doesn’t cross the line.

She explained to Oprah about Islam, how she came about getting married at 16 after and only met the guy once after being introduced by a mutual friend or family. How she only dated if another person tagged along because that’s how Islam taught us to do. No holding hands, no intimate conversation etc. She made me realized mistakes I’ve done and I’m glad those past relationship didn’t worked maybe because they are not right or the way love is accepted is not right etc. Love was driven with all the wrong feelings, that marriage never in a picture or always seems wrong to endure. I am supposed to embrace Islam and live accordingly without crossing a line. So, I am right not to want to go on a date on regular basis and unless I got another company to go along and marrying the right person who can remind me the right way to love and live life as a Muslim. Therefore, there is nothing wrong with my relationship and me as I am living my life now; I just haven’t met the RIGHT one. And mind you all who to believe RIGHT being PERFECT. No it’s not, it just imply right.

Yes, that is the moral of the show I managed to ponder and learn, and another is how I can be in my 30s and a minority or not married or not having children or not having millions yet and still living life to the fullest. The most important is if I am living my dreams and I am happy then I am ok. I should keep on hoping for good things in life to come in whatever decade it will arrive. I just need to pursue my goals without having to forgo my faith and its way of life.

"My 30s should be about my family and career."

For you all, these are a useful link regarding the issue:
Oprah, Thirty-Something in America
Fit Muslimah

D-Gift

Remember the wish list from last entry? Decided to discard all those dreams except maybe for one, the book. I'll buy it soon... wanna know why? Well, it's because I just received the ultimate price that truly from the hearts of my beloved... sisters. And it worth to strike through all those other things i can hope for. The thing?: the very pink SONY cybershot DSC-T70: (with pink leather casing included) Officially the best birthday gift ever. click! click! click! away...

D-day

It's that month again, and I got excited everytime, never mind the number increasing... I am contented... Since they say I have a high taste, this is my wish list for the next 12 months to come, beginning 14th Oct 2007:

1. Book: John Grisham - Playing for Pizza
2. Job: A part time work as a sideline
3. Personal Indulge: A new piercing
4. Accessories: A diamond earring
5. Cosmetics: Christian Dior Addict High Color Lipstick, Estee Lauder Pleasures Delight
6. Shoes: A new Mary Jane Wedges, A new Wedges Sandal.
7. Home Furnishing: A new Dining table
8. Home: A new garage
9. Travel: Dubai, Bali, Adelaide, New York!
10. Love: someone...

And then I am done.

The Return of the Holy month

It's Ramadhan again, and it just driven me back to do good deeds with the most generosity from this humble small piece heart of mine.

May Allah blessed us all with peace and a steady heart throughout the month, and eventually the rest of 1428H.

For all of you who were saying... "what is Ramadhan?" here is some light to it:

Ramadhan-pedia

Play House

TUNKU the Musical

Have been questioned myself about the perks of me being a YTL Platinum Plus member as I haven't received anything good to enjoy the benefits. Then , I got a call that I am invited to attend the musical simply titled 'TUNKU' at KLPac. Not wanted to enjoy it alone, I keep in close contact with RENU, one of YTL sales person to also include my friend who already a member and also to accept my uncle and my sister application to be a member and eventually got to enjoy the musical with me. And she did! Great job RENU.

So, as promised at the day of the event, we were served with some refreshments before the show, and that night, the shrimp tasted like heaven. That's how I saw the perks then. The show? was entertaining! I still thought it was wrongly titled though. Or maybe I didn't got the message? But the actors was brilliant! At one point there was Tony Eusoff standing 5 meters from me in a good posture gentlemen always standing, waiting for his turn to talk. He was gorgeous! Douglas Lim's great performance was my favorite, he is huge though! Maybe because I haven't seen him in action for quite some time now.

Overall? I enjoy it! Read about it

The FIRST wedding in the Family

So they did... they got solemnized, and got married. And it was officially the longest week of my life. I was tired but satisfied. Thank God it all turned out okay, there was some excessive gifts... nevertheless it was a joyous occasion despite some disappointments over family ignorance, then again ignorance is bliss, so, I believe God had his plan. There are questions that I have become insensitive to, I.e. “so, when is your turn then?” I have no more emotion to that. I just smiled, and said whatever comes to mind at that time.

We managed to have a one-to-one session with dad, still, (he didn't even think of giving us some money) hmm... well, that's the dad I know, so, don't judge us!

Anyway, here is the sneak peek of the event in pictures because pictures do speak louder than words.
The photos.

I see a green wall and I want it painted NOT black

While the Stones paint 'it' black, I decided to paint it... fuchsia pink, in my case ‘it’ being my bedroom wall. Funny how I decided to NOT go to work last Sunday and helping out mom with family stuffs as what every weekend have been designated for, and last weekend errand happened to be the day for me to paint my wall. Well, my colleague (or shall I say my new boss) did mention and I quote “it is optional for you to join the activity” hence me not present at the office, BUT I promised to keep my cell phone on, and turned out it rang… thus, I did my part.

And painting I was, with Michael Bublé serenade in the background, and my sisters helping out, it was a true family event, and the result? Lurvvving it! My wall is so feminine, I felt so graceful. Like Grace Kelly. Like Reese Witherspoon in Legally Blonde, not dumb, but smart enough to choose the perfect color that satisfied my taste.

For your sneak peek: (of the colour) or darker, or close...

My week of SPECTACULAR! SPECTACULAR!

Had a chance to watch two amazing performance within a week.

1. Transformers

The best presentation of my favorite childhood cartoon comes alive... in a major motion picture. Although the ending could have been given a more powerful touch, am still enjoyed the crazy brilliant of CGI manipulation. Great job indeed! It was definitely "more than meet the eyes". Shia Lebouf is macho and machoer as the story progress, therefore another pleasure to the eyes other than the amazing talking machines being displayed before me.

Like it. Like it very much.

Wonder what I would be if I can transform into something. A multifunctional tv I supposed? hmm...

2. The King & I musical

Never was a fan to the movie, but the theatrical performance was excellent. It was sponsored, so, I have to cherish it since i went the distance to go and made full use of the gift. And to watch it alone... made me appreciate it a little more. It was awkward at first, but I survived. Among the unfamiliar, very appropriate audiences, I savor the experience, and that brings me to another strike to my list to do before I am actually hits 30. Thanks majalah WANITA (although u could have given me a pair) :-) The actors were brilliant, the voice is powerful and etcetra etcetra etcetra...

Those two shows definitely MADE my very hectic and choking-me-to-death week.

I wish

for every human being on earth the best things in life... honestly...

Soundtrack is My wish by Rascal Flatts

I am the poor misguided fool

A very single- lonely guy friend asked me the other day, “did you ever felt lonely sometimes”, and being egomaniac that I am, I smugly said, “no… I have my family and my TV.” I wasn’t really thinking hard for that answer, rather transparently replied in such a way because I was determined to make this guy seeing the positive in life (after sudden heart attacks hit him due to depression). Looking back, and started to analyze all the things that followed, I wasn’t sure anymore.

When I said I had family full time, funny how my dad never really loved me and the only pat on the shoulder I got from him was because I took care of his favorite daughter while she sicks, I was told to sacrifice for the sake of the girls’ happiness, hold off my thought to be married first and wait for the right time to pursue my next academic pursuit bla bla bla. With family, it was all about timing, reminders, responsibilities and obligations. In the end, I won’t mind, because “After all I still can get what I want, even when I am alone”. Really?

When I said I have friends, as time passed, things are ought to change sometime, and before I know it, they all have their own families to care about, to give excuses not to have gathering during long weekends, can’t go out at night and to not be there when I finally need someone to talk to, and me living far from them all, certainly not helping. Am I mad? Nah, I have nothing but respect to that, they put family first above the rest. And I am back at one. Mono.

When I have nothing but sense of self when comes to weird pastime and hobbies, I was so convinced that entertainment can save my sanity when in silence and emotionally unstable. I defend every sound and features being the savior of my dreariness when no one understands. I sings, dance and act in my own quiet world of self deep down inside. How so this is all carried about? Alone. Hmm…

I definitely fooled myself eh? Who am I kidding? Although it’s the last place I even want to think of going, it is to the loneliness lane…

Some say I need a comfort voice to soothe, and gentle eyes to watch over me with tenderness, and a heart so I can make mine as a complete pair of organs; all from an honest male donor. Yet, hope can devastate when the expectation is too high, but for once in a blue moon, can you blame a girl for that?

So friend, I guess I am lonely sometimes...especially now... *Sigh* Wish Starsailor can soothe me with this every time

I am Flustered

So much for planning a perfect vacation way early, so much for finding a perfect time to suit others and in the end not mine and so much for putting other’s best interest before mine huh? Maybe that’s just the nature of me, always let myself down, guess I have been doing that lately... it was all unintended, I promise! Maybe I am not destined for all the good things in life. Maybe this just wasn’t the time.

It is still heartbreaking though, a total pain in the heart and mind. If only…

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No place like home in the end...

I am shocked!

Come on now? They booted out MELINDA DOOLITTLE? What happened to all the Americans? Well, I guess they are in need of young American Idol eh? Still.. it's a major surprise in American idol History!

Dang it!

That's okay, Melinda will still rockin' the Music world anytime soon... she definitely will.
Urgh!!! Still am trying to digest the fact that she's out...

American Idol

I am hooked on E!

I wish I can say E for the infamous blue pill - ecstasy...but...it is actually THE entertainment channel namely simply E! for ENTERTAINMENT of the one and only tindletown, HOLLYWOOD!, channel 76 on ASTRO... honestly... it seems like my fingers keep pushing the buttons numbered 7 and 6 these days (especially the long holiday I cherished so much spent in front of the tv - yeah, what's new?)...

so, gotta love astro eh? looooveeeee it!

I don't Love you!

I Like

My current obsession: http://www.ilike.com

Can't seem to stop guessing those tracks or the artists snippits...

what's the prize? nothing... which is even weirder... i guess music is in my blood, might not succeeded as the composer or the artist, but definitely the biggest fan...

Next Target: 25000 (as i have reached 20000 points)

hahahahahahaha

The new interest

For some reason, I found men like LUDACRIS and Chris Rock is attractive these days... While Chris Rock due to the dream, Ludacris since after "CRASH" (which is a very good MOVIE) and the 49th Grammy Awards (which I can't get enough of). Maybe I should go out and buy that RELEASE THERAPY album by Ludacris (which is weird because I never really love rap music), a good release at least? huh?

Maybe just because they are African-American.

I dunno.

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The sweet dream

Had a weird dream last night, nevertheless I woke up smiling and all, and it’s been a while since I last smile waking up. In addition to that, that happened after a very tiring four days of sickness, (still a good weekend though). Bad health made you feels hopeless, in my case, it just made me stronger, because I know now although independent sucks, it still is the best solution, the ONLY solution for me I guess.

Never mind that, so, what really happens in that dream you ask? The story was, I found the one, I fell in love and supposedly gotten married, but I woke up! Dang it! So, who is the mystery man? Heheh. MR CHRIS ROCK himself… seriously! It was the best love affair ever!

And suddenly I am a frequent visitor of www.chrisrock.com. What can I say? I am a hopeless lover. (or so I thought?)

The day I got shots

It's exactly one week since I allowed myself to be shot in so many poses...embarassing.. but at the same time... fulfilling...

Want to know more? click here

enjoy...

hehehe

The weird feeling

Out of the blue, I uttered these words to my sister last two nights, “I have no whatsoever feelings when I look at men these days”…

Huh?

I know what u r thinking. I wasn’t referring to the act of me confused with my sexual orientation or me going to other side thingy… it’s just, I dunno… it’s weird though. And don’t give me that crap “no, you just haven’t found what I have been looking for”... The thing is, how can I found 'him' when I couldn’t even take a closer look?

Seriously?

The Inconvenience Truth

I am going to tell you a story about the day I was back at the place called Star Hill. Iza got the two free invitations to watch "The Inconvenience Truth" at the KLPac. Since she can't pick the tickets herself because she had to go back to kampung, I volunteered to pick it up for her. There was I with one heavy load on my shoulder just got back from a game (a certain treasure hunting activity) went on to go collect the passes. Still mad at my friend who refused to drop me at the exact place, I planned to leave the bags at the KL central because I needed to be back there to go back home anyway. Found out I need RM1.50 in 50 cents coins for the locker, I go changed the notes, only to find out later that there are no locker available. Dang it! Then, in a build-up fury, I walked on to Monorail Station to just go ahead without further thinking to Bukit Bintang Area and straight to Star Hill Gallery, the YTL Platinum Lounge to be exact. The minute I step in, Star Hill is even more lavish than I remember. All those fury and tiresome slowly diminished. That very moment, I felt calm at the same time I also felt inadequate and out of place. Feel totally like I don't belong, I go ahead speaking in a very good English accent to ask a gentleman who very much looked like a butler about the location of the place I wanted to go... with a very laid back t-shirt and jeans on my body, and a very heavy bags I carried, I walked on like a country girl coming to New York to the club lounge and took a breather in the lounge's sofa... it was a good feeling...


Although the truth is not as inconvenience as the title, the one that matter is the show itself, yes, the show that won the Best Long Documentary in the last 79th Academy Awards. The one about Al Gore and his war to fight the global warming and climate change to the world. The inconvenience Truth. It was definitely a good cause to preach, and an eye opener for me to care for things that matter that I always took for granted. Did I recycle? Hardly, did I use the water and electricity wisely, when I remember, did I ever care about the extinct flora and fauna? The access used of conserved energy. I am indeed one ignorant gal in this matter eh... time to change! Thanks Iza for taking me to the show. owh, did I mention I saw Sheila Majid during the show? Very much pregnant and still gorgeous!

And I need to move

I need to wake up

I need to change

I need to shake up

I need to speak out

Something’s got to break up

I’ve been asleep

And I need to wake up

Now

The Grammy and the Academy

This business of me took a day off work to watch wards show really paid off this year… the Grammy didn’t disappoint me and Oscar is just as wonderful.

The 49th Grammy Awards

Although the Grammy Favorites become clearer each year, I didn’t mind John Mayer win again. Maybe Grammy always amused by the idea of peace on earth, and while Mayer waiting on the world to change, it is obvious that positive energy needed to make all that comes true. Who else can inject that positiveness in all of his/her music other than John Mayer, and the good looks and voice helps a whole lot more.

All other performances are just as entertaining, love John Legend (always do), love Christina Aguilera, who rose above the stage just after brilliant performance from three generations of R&B performers. “It’s a men’s world indeed” and Christina just belted out the right note to fight that! Awesome!

On the favorite genre, ROCK, didn’t really sure I like RHCP wins… but I guess 2006 is their year… so, they deserved it.

O yeah... among all the wins, my favorite was indeed Mary J Blige moments. After all the drama in her life, she deserved it. And her always-outstanding performance never failed to amuse, so, here it goes my newfound love for the woman and her music! No more Drama! (won’t promise that though)

4 hours later, I am exhaustedly satisfied… (hmm…)

The 79th Academy Awards

Firstly, Ellen Degeneres was awesome, the jokes are funny, to Peter O Toole,” you know what they say, three times a charm” hilarious!

On the nominees and winnings, too bad Leo didn’t get to win yet again eh? Still, Forest Whittaker and Helen Mirren did well in both their movies, so, they deserved it. Eddie Murphy’s lost is quite a shock though. It seems to prove drama always won when it comes to best performance in a leading and supporting role. But, Jennifer Hudon won right? It’s her other American dream came true at least? Whatever…

The performances were awesome. Melissa Etheridge won huh? I guess it is time to remind people of the world on the importance of global warming. Suddenly the thought of the land is shrinking is really scary huh?

The Departed won!!!! Yea!!! Hurray!!! So, Leo, it wasn’t all bitterness eh? Congratulations Mr Martin Scorcese, I will really like to act in one of your movies someday… someday…

4 hours later, I am contented and glad I shared the whole day with my mom! Her predictions mostly wrong and I am practically right all the time, so I won! An award for me, the undeniably biggest Hollywood fan in Malaysia... hehehehe.

The things that matter

I guess I am not cut up to whatever I have been preaching lately…

I am not kind to be loved,
I am not entitled for new shoes
I am certainly not a good sister role model

What made me in a very good niche then?

When I am in the company of good music, good movie, and good circle of talented artist… did I ever say I like Mary J Blige? She is definitely a true representative of women's national anthem…

Stay with me baby…

The sisterhood and SHOES!

My sisters and I have that very close bonds, I myself couldn’t even believe it sometime. Watching how they have grown and changed so much made me a little bit worried… that they will not need me altogether. I spend some past weekend catching up with our not-yet-seen DVD, among them, In her Shoes, the sisters’ bond in the story remind me a little bit about us, with a slight different in the brain, i.e. when I am smart, both of them are way smarter... And like Rose Feller would say,

“I really don’t make sense without my sister”.

I really am…

Sad. Suddenly such a bloody rush fills my head when the picture of them leaving me to begin their life with their own family playing on my mind. Well, on top of the moral of the story from the feature, something in that movie made me green with envy, which is… O my God! Did you see the closet full of shoes? I want them! I really want them, and judging by the look on your face boys while you reading this, yes, women do need more than 1 shoe, more than 100 in fact. All those Manolo Blahnik, Jimmy Choo, even plain old ever popular here, VINCCI! Give them shoes to me! Give me! Give me! In the movie again, Rose does make every sense when she said, and I quote;

“Clothes never look any good, and food just makes me fatter, but shoes always fit.”

Shoes do fit every time. Which reminds me, it is about that time for me to buy a new one. And my sisters will definitely agree with me on this… we are in desperate needs of new racks for all those shoes, and now that all of us are working, trust me, you will be amazed at how much shoes we wear… or needed or should have. Hehehe.

So, Atiq and Siti, Hopefully we stay close like this till the end of time, with them shoes and all...

And I quote another beautiful words spoken by Maggie Feller,

I carry your heart with me. I carry it in my heart.
I am never without it.
I want no world, for, beautiful... you are my world, my true.
Here is the deepest secret no one knows.
Here is the root of the root... and the bud of the bud...
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life...
which grows higher than the soul can hope... or mind can hide.
It is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart.
I carry your heart. I carry it in my heart.

The month of LOVE perhaps?

As any given February, the month never seems to bring my attention to other things than amor, cliché as it sounds, and the fact I am not supposed to celebrate the-most-talked-about day in this month, Love does fills my air, even though it doesn’t come from a particular very much visible significant other. The question is, am I doing it just to believe again, or for the heck of enjoying the moments as any other hopeless romantics out there? Well, for whatever reasons I can come out with, I needed that belief system stuck in my heart for me to at least have a decent intimate conversation with someone. I am definitely trying… reaching out to someone, and giving back to the very best that I can.

A little message from the humble heart of mine to all those love devotees/skeptics out there:

1. Flowers are still a nice gestures
2. Love always bring a smile
3. A little attention goes a thousand miles…

Therefore, y’all, work it out, for whatever state of affairs you are in.

The GIG that banned me

Another new resolution for New Year, but seems inappropriate for 1428H, therefore I’ll say it’s for 2007. i.e. more gigs. And who will be next one in town? MUSE….Yes.

my life… you electrify my life…
Let’s conspire to re-ignite…
All the soul that would die just to feel alive

Ok, back to the reason why I am so not amused right now… the fact that the concert is being sponsored by TIGER Beer… caused a disappointment… at least to me, a very much Islamic follower. Turned out that the since TIGER beer or any other form of alcohol substance is a no-no in Islam, we are banned from attending it. Bugger! Although, and I said this hypothetically, there might be those who like to bend the rules, well, I decided to respect it and let it go not-wholeheartedly)… why can’t PEPSI or something sponsoring MUSE? Why? Why?

There you go… a lost to start off a more-gigs-resolution of the year.

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The drilling

Took another 3 hours and 15 minutes off the 8 hours routine down at the office, went to start a new resolution for the 1428H, i.e. be involved in trading shares and stuff… so, I opened an account, unfortunately, the process doesn’t take that 3 hours ++ long, so I made an appointment with the dentist.

So, there I was, at the most threatening place to be, on a dentist chair. Recalling all the experiences I had with other dentists previously, I know for sure, when there are no more tears after every treatment, and then I know I have found my most trusted one. Who would have guessed? That trusted one turned out to be my very own flesh and blood, my sister the dentist. After the gruesome drilling and patching and whatever stuff she did inside my mouth, and found out later that I didn’t cry? That’s the greatest feeling to have with addition to the disappearance of the pain. I can now smile painlessly. THANKS atique! (still hurt though.. a good kind a pain...) huh?

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The departed...

As you would have guessed, the title may made you think I am actually still in the award mood, I am not that too involved (yeah right), still cannot believe Leo didn’t win one of the two nominations though…

Anyways, my uncle back to Oman today, after a long holiday in the homeland, Malaysia. It's not like we never see him everytime he’s here, but this time the farewell seem a little too moving. Maybe it's due to the longer time spent at our humble home rather than any other hotels he usually checked himself in. A lot have been talked about and lots of things he helped us out, for all that I am so grateful uncle. Sorry I can’t say it out loud, turned out I am the kind of people who cannot express any emotions out loud… (now I know)

Bye bye sir… see you next summer...

The day I took a day off for the Award

In the true fashion of one true Hollywood fan, the award is among the most awaited event in the yearly planner. Hence, being that true Hollywood enthusiast, I took a day off-work on Tuesday, 16th January 2007, mark the night for The 64th ANNUAL GOLDEN GLOBE AWARD. Glued to the tele as usual (yeah, you did think I was there at Beverly Hilton in Beverly Hills, CA, kan? Kan?), I watched every winners go on stage; listen to every acceptance speech, smiling happily when the favorites won and sad when those in favor loses. Hey, my predictions cannot ALL be true eh? Anyway, among those great winners, my ultimate beloved, Hugh Laurie won, so, yeay!!!! his acceptance speech was awesome! the funniest.

…and the rest of my off-work day?

Perfect!
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2007 and counting

Rolling into another new year again, 2007… wonder what this year will brings me…

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY…

Wrapped up 2006 with what have always been my passion, music and movie… as a fan anyways, and not the creative backbone of the industry (wish I am though).

So, SNOW PATROL officially inducted into my own list of favorite bands, 5 very shining stars! Thanks to Atiq for blabbing about the band all these times. Their haunting music serenaded me during those very difficult times and it fixed me real good like Coldplay once did. It is now stuck in my head:

It's so thrilling but also wrong

Don't have to prove that you are so strong

Cos I can carry you on my back

After our enemies attack

I tried to tell you before I left

But I was screaming under my breath

You are the only thing that makes sense

Just ignore all this present tense

It's Beginning To Get to Me, from EYES WIDE OPEN album.

Now, would you not just stay still and lost in your own space listening to THAT! *sigh*

Next, I watched Shawshank Redemption yet again on DVD; it is definitely worth telling the world that it is indeed my favorite movie of all time. Andy Dufresne is one kind of a character in it, and he is right indeed when he said,”Remember Red, hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies”. He does have a point, although Red is also right when he said, “Let me tell you something my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane”.Actually, both have a point… I just need to tell my heart which one worth to adhere to.

Last but not least… 2006 has been good and I feel blessed throughout the full calendar year, although I may not find that ONE thing for sure… I will definitely moving on for more things to come, because it is true, “good things happen for those who waits”, so, I’ll linger and endure for more.

The devastation

Funny how when the nations weeps for disaster and here I am whining about myself... it is sad! I hope my prayers are enough to ease these people's pain due to the very bad Flood incident happened after 100 years of similar disaster in my very own country, to my fellow statesmen.

Please God, help ease their life post disaster, so they can get back on track with the life they used to be. Wish I had all the money in the world to assist in anyway to buy those things that lost. Whatever I gave, may it represents the part of my heart that cares.

Really I am...