The Fotopages

Spending too much time on internet is at times not a very good idea. Especially when you keep browsing those pages fill with photos of your friends’ wedding, husband, wife, babies (in other words, families). It is good to actually keep in touch with their life through images they captured, but my so-called stubbornness in letting go of things made me hate myself everyday. Moments made me reminiscing so much that it made me asked, “what if”. Not that I don’t want these people to be happy. But, to know that my happiness is yet (or may not) coming near soon, *sigh… heartbreaking.

Sad sad stuff… will I change? Hopefully 2007 will see the cheerful me through and through.

It will, I just have a good feeling about it. I do.

The Depression

Signs and symptoms Bipolar disorder is characterized by an alternating
pattern of emotional highs (mania) and lows (depression). The intensity of the
associated signs and symptoms varies. Bipolar disorder can range from a mild
condition to a severe condition, and there may be periods of normal behavior.
· For many people, signs and symptoms in the manic phase may include:
> Feelings of euphoria, extreme optimism and inflated self-esteem
> Rapid speech, racing thoughts, agitation and increased physical
activity
> Poor judgment
> Recklessness or taking chances not normally taken
> Difficulty sleeping
> Tendency to be easily distracted
> Inability to concentrate
> Aggressive behavior

· In the depressive phase, signs and symptoms include:
> Persistent feelings of sadness, anxiety, guilt or hopelessness
> Disturbances in sleep and appetite
> Fatigue and loss of interest in daily activities
> Problems concentrating
> Irritability
> Chronic pain without a known cause

I have read these in the Sun, I thought I saw the symptoms in me (or displayed by me) at times. Am I? actually having this disorder?

The Travel Wish List

I wrote this while chatting with a friend, it sounded good, and I declared it being an awesome around-the-world travel itinerary. I hope the list will grow soon…And the adventure shall see me:

1… taking my mom to ISTANBUL
2… backpacking in INDIA
3… climbing MT EVEREST
4… sightseeing beautiful EUROPE
5… discover BIG APPLE
6… falling in LOVE in PARIS
7… exploring love in VENICE
8… snow skiing in SWITZERLAND with my kids
9… celebrate my 50th wedding anniversary in EGYPT

Then, I die smiling back in my homeland… the ever truly Asia, MALAYSIA… yezza!

My feet's dancing with the song of Love

It’s sad that these days I can’t just write without thinking too hard. I guess not all things should be put down in writing immediately. Some considerations may help me determined whether things are worthy be obsessed of and be told to the world right after it happened. I am telling this though, a week and a half after it took place.

Went to watch two very different kind of movies this month (well, there is no plan to watch any other). Firstly, the ever so joyful HAPPY FEET, as what Hollywood animation feature had always managed to deliver, this one did, one pure fun entertainment for two hours straight. Mumble and the gang succeeded in making me laugh that weekend.

As Ramon said, “…you did everything penguinly possible.” gotta love that…

Unfortunately, I moved from laughing too hard to actually cry at the movie… yeah, I am unashamedly admit that I weep while watching CINTA (thanks Joj, for the company), among the first mostly anticipated Malay movie I wanted to see so much. A week of obsession over the whole storyline, cinematography gripping every emotions displayed and the soundtrack later, I am cooled off now. It’s just (to me) prove that Malay movie scene can only sell with love-based story again and with that good of presentation, I bought it and it caught my heart good. I am such a sensitive freak.

“A little girl told me, that love is about letting go” I am still trying…

The Engagement

No, it's not mine again...

it's my sister's...

I am exhausted and tired of all the questions...

But my sister's gorgeous... and I am halfway there to feel at ease...