The longest walk...

I took the hardest and the longest way to the office today, solely because of the need to save money for the other things that, to me, worth the tiresome journey and a hunger strike (among the efforts to save the RM). To lose a few kilos of fat after that... will make things and time worthwhile, or so I hope. In another word, priceless... Walking was fun, remind me of the old days when bus is the only public transportation that is affordable, (wow, felt kinda too old as i am writing this), accompanied by good music in my I-Pod Shuffle (or rather my sister's) made the walk even more enjoyable. It felt like I am in my own music video... walking with attitude, smile with satisfaction and breathing at ease despite the toxic disposal out of the automobiles. And to share it along with hundreds other servants to the corporate world in this money-based era, made myself fit in for once... in the space full of strangers.

Walk the line...

D & D

I got my finger on the trigger
But I don't know who to trust
When I look into your eyes
There's just devils and dust
I feel a dirty wind blowing
Devils and dust

I got God on my side
And I'm just trying to survive
What if what you do to survive
Kills the things you love
Fear's a powerful thing, baby
It can turn your heart black you can trust
It'll take your God filled soul
And fill it with devils and dust

We've got God on our side
We're just trying to survive
What if what you do to survive
Kills the things you love
Fear's a powerful thing, baby
It'll turn your heart black you can trust
It'll take your God filled soul
Fill it with devils and dust

Now every woman and every man
They wanna take a righteous stand
Find the love that God wills
And the faith that He commands
I've got my finger on the trigger
And tonight faith just ain't enough
When I look inside my heart
There's just devils and dust

Why Gedeon Mckinney?!!!!

Another disappointment in the American idol story, at least the frustration is on me as a fan. Of those boys (who are actually all good), I was hoping Gedeon will make it through Top 5. I guess he’s not American’s favorite, or the votes wasn’t enough to keep him in the final 12!!! this is just wrong...

WHY!!? WHY!!???

I think He is one a raw talent that one of recording companies out there had to sign him up!! They must!

By the way Gedeon, my heart is out for you all the way.

Bring back the glamour...

(07/3/2006)
Just when I thought Grammy not WOW enoug, Oscar is not dissappointing, with glamour glory as a theme, it was indeed an exquisite night to remeber. And as were expected, my boyfriend, Mr George Clooney bag the best supporting actor award, and CRASH won most of the important achievement, screenplay and best picture! woohoo!! O yeah, Reese wins! Over all, when grammy was not all that entertaing, Academy sure had made my month, with John Stewart's politically incorrect jokes... I think he's ok.

Last but not least, things I do here and in my life for what it concerns is what I'd say:

"I am just trying to matter..."

I truly am. Thanks June Carter Cash, and thanks Reese for brings that up...

Rise and Fall

It is incomprehensible how Life is a well defined balanced that should keep people move on or at least stick with the routines. Yet, the event that happened recently somehow affected my routines and life sits still for that matter. Just when I thought single parent had a tough job, try being the eldest with a single parent and two other female siblings...

To begin things with, they never failed to impress me with their achievement. Or the least to have big ambitions that I knew some day will made us all proud. One has succeeded in becoming a dentist who wishes to prolong the skills to forensic, and one has been appointed as a tech leader in an IT developing firm where she only started working 4 months ago. I'd say that's something to be proud of eh? Unlike me... too afraid to pursue things I like… Changes going to come, changes will come. It better come!

Just when I thought we had a happy ending there, lightning strike again on our family, build up sorrow that long forgotten. Another dream of extending family members shattered again for unknown reason. How dare men just ended things by saying "there's just no more spark left". Bull****! All that tears for a heartless firm decision that can never be reverted to its old state of "this is a start of something good". It is such a shame that made us a fool too many times. This got to bring to a halt sometimes! sometime soon!

And it doesn't stop there... at the point where there is hope to at least ease the melancholic episode, that is our new home sweet home, the landlord did it again, loaded up the burden on our shoulders, with yet another threat that cause us restless nights, and days for that matter. How could one be so cold when it is all so clear that it begun with their wrong judgement on things that were done? How could they even involved themselves with Ah long and caused us to pay the price. It may not happen yet, but the threat sure is clear. How many unfortunate events have we heard about these malicious moneylenders. What if it happened to us? I will not forgive them should that come true to us. People... how come some could be so pitiless and cause us to worry all the times.!!!!

Of all and all that happened, I just wish our determination to stay strong in life will help us through these.
May God be with us, and all your prayers are truly appreciated.