From me to fellow Muslim

I questioned myself everyday as I take a good glance all around me, the more people I get to know the more confused I become on what had become the true life of Islam in general and as human being as a whole. I admit I had a fair share of not living the whole rightful way of Islam, and not proud of it. I even said Acheh being ‘taksub’ implementing Islam, when they actually doing the right thing. (What was I am thinking!! Shame on me!) Until all the deadly sins eliminated the least from thought of ours only then Islam is living harmoniously, without terrorism, without inequality, without and the least with all heart without questioning the rationality on the routines. So the religion is easy, doesn’t mean we should we made it tooooo easy. It’s too appalling and excruciating.

What’s worst is when fellow Muslim questioning the facts that given to us through our very own Holy Quran. Why arguing the facts? Why can’t we accept that some things are simply sins and forbidden and faith determine humane? Instead man tries to take control over faith, correcting the obvious wrong by being God, hence all the personal claim in declaring rage over syariah jurisdiction in particular and the whole belief system on humanitarian in general, thus provoking war and terrorism almost in every part of the world today. Talking about pride and prejudice! To be honest, this has taken me to the next level of scares, how life can be over in few seconds without us being part in changing the world for the better place.

In the end, I am glad being raised with this faith instilled in me since born, and try so hard to overlook all the so-called excitement flaunting all around me. Enjoy life, just try not to ‘cross the line’ as a Muslim (a little reminder to self here). So I did this, doing my part as a Muslim in my own little way. If someone offended, I apologize from the very bottom of my heart. You might say I have no life but I am taking that baby step closer to heaven for eternal life after death… If I keep doing the right thing and If God keep calling me closer, that is. Please remind me from time to time if you don’t mind. I appreciate it.
Peace and Love………

Music gets me every Time...

Music really gets me every time, and to prove it I watch the Grammy awards three times back to back last night. What a show I’d say. With tributes to 50th anniversary of Rock n Roll, it only made me glued closer to the tele. Did you see Melissa Etheridge and Joss Stone roll it all out for Janis? Wish she were here to see that, well if she’s here, she too went all out together with them. And what about that Lynyrd Skynyrd!!! Argh!!! I can still imagine my excitement with my eyes just roll out, surprised and satisfied at the same time. What a performance by those country folks… and that Keith Urban!!! Cute!!! Wish I were Gretchen Wilson up there on that stage. Sweet Home Alabama… they’re coming home indeed. Alicia Keys… need I say more? And Jamie Foxx… what a voice, what a voice, I bet Ray is smiling up from above right then. And what’s with this grammy people, you need to award people when they are die? Can’t you see his success in his years of making all those good music, rewind to last year... Luther Vandross… well, he was in a stroke, but still… What’s done is done, and I am happy with the entire award and honorary recipients, but Maroon 5? Never mind… John Mayer always the best, Franz Ferdinand!!! … I want you to take me out! Still I wish the killers were performing as well, and way to go the ‘American Idiot’ Green Day… well done proving, rock is indeed FUN!. Last but not least! The Beatles crossing across the universe spreading their contagious, most successful music of all time, and the tradition continues by these fellow excellent singers: Stevie Wonder, Alicia Keys, Billy Joe Armstrong, Velvet Revolver, Steven Tyler, Bono of U2, Norah Jones (my fav), Allison Kraus, Tim McGraw and others I ight forgot the names sending a pledge to people across the globe that Something is definitely gonna change our world. Music has done their part. It’s up to us now. Spread the love my friends… spread the lurve…

V for volatility?

Supposedly D-Day for all the lovers out there be it whom or what ever that they are in love with. It is the celebration of love and affection that touch one’s heart deep enough to appreciate life as a whole. Although with the belief system I have, it is not encouraged to be obsessed with it, yet, I am depressed on this very day (perhaps it’s just the manic Monday)… actually feeling left out of the excitement. I am feeling so low that I start to despise every thing I did or think or look. What a snob! Why should I make the fuss on this? The fact that I seem like having someone at the moment, it certainly doesn’t feel like it. I am feeling invisible. I am doing it out of gratitude that I hope I could give my love in return. Weird though, it’s been almost three months and neither of us doing it like everybody else. Is it because of me being over protected? (Could be the major reason) or I am just totally constrained myself to be overly attracted? It is part of the sabotaging myself yet again scheme I gues…
…………..see how relevant V being volatile?… I am walking on air…..
One fact I know, although it seems like I am in a good rapport, the truth is I don’t feel loved but I feel insignificant. What a feeling… worth hooked on it? Unlikely.

My body is a woNderful Pain

It's only early in the morning, and my body started to hurt all over again. Yes, I do have my fair share of being a woman, being sick!... easily. And with the same results after one check up after another really made me had it. Why would the doctor said I am okay when this constant ache keep coming whenever they wanted? Reading one article which had the same alarming symptoms I had, proclaiming the early warning of CANCER made me even more body-and -health conscious. But, when the doctors said there's nothing to be worried about made me question the system. How do you detecting cancer really? before it even reaches 'I'm sorry sir, there's nothing else that we can do'? Here we are reading, hearing and learning a lot of things to prevent it, and to be alert of those warning signs, yet, the doctor refused to let us believe we could be having it by suggesting all those expensive tests that could be a wasted of time. But, excuse me? didn't we, have our own rights with our own money that we wanted to be told to be cautious and just go on with the tests anyway? Leaving us in a wary of something big could happened and hanging on a thread is even more restless. And, I'm just tired to feel worry about it, to go up and down the doctor's office, to actually find a good one as one of the office's panel is not convincing enough... What is happening to a lot of systems surrounding us? Rather than helping us, they really just another object existed on this very earth doing their own things. Helping other in needs my a**.

This freaking woRkplace

Just when I thought I am gaining something useful in a so-called working environment, I am also getting depressed every second going through all of it, the job, the people, the bureaucracy, the chaos, the ups and down. It is a crazy world here and I am trapped in it. Why do we blame others when thing does not go our way? It's human nature I guess, the idea to want everything going perfectly well has made us overlooked the bright side of it...Mr Brightside by The Killers... And with colleague affected by all the stressful stuffs induced more negative impacts in my network cloud. And to not be able to share it with someone whenever I am down, at any instance, made me broken into tears I never wanted to see it appeare for quite some time now... And I broken when I lonesome.. seether... What a weak soul!