Tuesday, April 25, 2006

The Code

I am now deep into Robert Langdon's world... kinda prepared before the big screen. Not much time, so have to hurry. Has that been said, please take note (should you are the frequent reader…) this blog will be abandoned for a while, until the code is broken.

MY EGO PLAN IS IN ANGOLA

Later…

Monday, April 24, 2006

Weirdly flattered

The weirdest thing happened to me last Friday, okay, maybe not weird to some people, but definitely a first for me. It was while I am driving to another work place of mine down in PJ. Right at the Pantai traffic junction, when the light is red, I was doing my stuff, stretching, looking at right and left, glancing towards another car... then suddenly this man driving a Honda next to me take notice and wanted more attention from me. Thinking that is nothing, I drove away the minute the light turned green. Suddenly I was taken by surprise when I looked at the rearview mirror, he followed me! He kept flashing his high beam light asking me to stop at the side of the road, thinking… ”Did I hit him or something?” and he won’t take no for an answer, I was terrified, dunno what to do and stopping at the side of the Federal Highway is not an option… so I kept on going and since he is still following, I finally stopped very near to my office building. And he did too! He went out of his car, I rolled the window down decided not to go out too, cause it could lead to more terrible things if I am unlucky… “God Forbid!” Seeing he’s walking towards me… “Here we go… who is this guy, what could have he wants from me?” God knows lots of things played on my minda at that very moment. Then there he is… at my window:

Me: “Yes?” (what is it?)
Unknown guy: “Hi, I nak kenal la”
Me: (What?! Huh!) with a very confused face
Unknown guy gave me his card: “you ada handphone no”
Me: “oo… hmm, nanti I call you kay?”
Unknown guy: “ok, nama you siapa”
Me: “hmm… Diana, hmm.. okaylah, later, I gotta go”
Unknown guy: “okay, nice to meet ya..”
Me: smile insincerely and drove way.

What? All that scares and just for the sake of getting to know me? Is that what people do these days…? The world is definitely getting creepy, and finding a normal one special kind of love now is just getting more complicated.

*Sigh*

Looking back at that daunting incident, I was slightly flattered though… someone’s actually notice… in a very bizarre way… a very eerie way indeed. What a day it was…

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Sleeping partner

This is my sleeping buddy at night... introducing the 'red devil'... no.. not because of my love of football, simply because it is my cute little red devil...

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Playing the Game...Right

My self-esteem has never been high due to last week event that gave me some level of confidence I thought I lost it (strange but true). The event somehow thought as another new beginning for more good things to follow after. I know of it… well, I hope it does. There’s a thing about confidence that makes you want to do so much at one go. You were like pumped up to be associated with lots of stuffs even with one that you thought impossible before. And when people actually take notice of you, it inspires you to ensure you will excel in everything that you do or at least give back some faith when it is nearly forgotten. But, it kinda depressing when at the end of the day, you found yourself made a few silly mistakes and wish you could do better, and worst when there’s those looks people make that made you feel guilty of the seven deadly sins, or at least one of them. Then again, that’s a circle of life kan?

Met a friend for coffee yesterday, initially to discuss about some work transaction that I am not exactly the expert although I am working there. Come to think about it, I do not know most of the important stuff about my organization. That’s not a good consciousness. Hmm… coming back to the meeting, the funny thing about is it I actually keep hoping since the first time we met, “…that he must be single…” although one can actually make a quick deduction that he is not when one take a good look at him. And when such thought kept playing in your mind, you have this undefined feeling every time he contacted you although all the signs was there that this is not what I am suppose to hope for anything at all. Thank God for the positiveness I am trying to work at, I am playing the game anybody would like to initiate, be it not at my territory at all and the result of that game as of now I’d say a win-win. We’ll see what happened in the next round or perhaps another match with another opponent another time. Who wants to play?

Read one article last time about things to do before you die, among them are “befriend with someone at least fifteen years older than you..”. How’s 48 with a lot I can learn from? well, if the lessons are worthy of learning ;-) I think I can strike that one in the ‘to-do list before you die’ eh?

Monday, April 17, 2006

I'm sooo tired...

How tiresome made you think of so many things at the same time...
"... my back is killing me ...this bladder problem is giving me the creep. Is it because of the heavy lifting ...?" (thank God, the massage really helps... thanks bibik)
"... God, how do we get to keep all these junks all these years?..." (still keeping it though)
"... (on last week episode of CSI), Nick is so not cute with moustache..."
"I wonder how many mails I have since the last time I accessing the Internet due to my leave of absence from work for a WEEK!..."(wondering if I still have friends who cared)
"... How do I get an extra income to cover back all this expenses of moving into this new home of ours..... plan plan plan... creative writing class by June, started writing seriously in September... got accepted by January, got a first royalties by March..." (a high hopes right here, yet not doing anything about it)
"What was I thinking buying a handphone not to my standard, at least not now..." (nevertheless, like my new gadget very much)
"...I just found out that Jon Bon Jovi married his Highschool sweetheart... and still is" (wish I had the same luck)
"I wish a lot of things...." and today...
Having a wealthy dad or husband surely is a blessing if my intention is to be like Oprah, Bon Jovi, Angelina Jolie. etc etc etc... you know, giving back to humanity. Not being able to let myself to think of others by donating monetary values for the moment as we were living scraping by, made me hated myself sometimes. Then again, those unfortunates will have a piece of my heart and mind in all my prayers... Insya Allah.
How tiresome made us remember how small we are and bring us closer to God... Thank heaven I am still sane... I'm just soooo tired.. I could barely bring myself to do my job... now.. at this moment...
*sigh*

Saturday, April 08, 2006

what is it with me...?

On the way back from kemas2 at our new home, while driving with my mommy, was listening to the Fly FM for the mash for cash thingy, still didn't get it though, and while on it,we were listening to Weezer's Perfect situation over and over again in one day.. then, at the fifth time it aired on Fly, I started to pay attention to Rivers Cuomo's voice and suddenly I am sucked into the sound like I never heard it before... he do have a deep, different and a haunting voice for a nerdy looking rock star... (kinda what I had in mind for a partner.... at least if tall dark and handsome is nowhere to be found.. hehehe).
The lyrics are another different story... he's a pretty sight i won't mind lingering in my brain for the next few days... and suddenly I am ."..singing.. ooOO.. ooOO.. ooOO.. OOOOO singing, oo..oo...."

My own Home Sweet Home

Been spending another weekend in our new home which we will officially occupied on Tuesday night 11th of March 2006, and offcially transferring the stuff on Saturday 15th of March 2006. Can't wait... been observing the kitchen cabinet deployment last Friday. Nice one indeed, although wish I could first extend the back of the house by occupying the whole 9 feet ground at the back yard not allowing any grass to grow... then again... some other time.. when the time is right, and money is there. ;-) One thing though.. wiring is still the problem.. gotta wait for Monday for it to be fixed... I hoped my patience is still at a safe level before i burst out to them pemaju and the contractor for doing such a lousy jobs to satisfy their customer especially as nice as me.. if not.. trust me, I'd be on their no 1 Hate list.
Forgetting all the hate stuff... I actually can't wait to live in a property that I can proudly called my own... be it i am in debt for the next 30 years... (hope I can live that long...)
Home sweet home, here I come... Alabama... ops.. more like Nilai Impian... where one of my dream finally came true.. Mommy.. this is for you indeed.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Unwanted yet standing strong...

She cried last night after the thought of she's over it, and it upset the rest of the family all over again...and it cause me to reminiscing...
I was introduced to a boy known to be THE one in a million for at least 5 years of acquaintances, until he broke the actually-very-fragile heart of my little sister. Just when I thought he could at least change our melancholic living family and extended it for a bigger happier home, he shattered all those dream with ridiculous excuses. So they say men can change, didn't think this give rather a huge slap to the family's face.
To whom it may concern, I thank you for ruining our heart (yet again in a totally different circumstances), for breaching our trust, for putting another shame to our life, for damaging our reputation and for all the unacceptable reason, only God can repay on behalf of us, the weak link. Yet, thank you for the knowledge that may or may not be beneficial.
The incident that followed... did not help at all.
Got introduced to a single guy by a friend with intention to help me ending all these silly unfortunate events that looked like a curse to our family and.. of course to help me out as I am getting older and still single. Surprisingly enough he rejected the matchmaking idea the minute he looked at my photo in http://www.friendster.com I guess it's just prove how they are all the same when they denied the idea we labeled them as shallow. Am I losing it? Have I reached my prime? That is a very scary thought to digest, and being the positive person I am trying hard to become, I'd be feeling low for the next few hours (70% +ve). By noon, I'll be saying "...it's His Lost!..." it is definitely is.