The Lost Hunter

Being over confident comes with a price, and losing is definitely not an option, the consequence? the prolonged dissappointment. It was so devastated to lose in such a closed hunt that could have been won easily... It's all due to wrong small judgments that could have been otherwise huge victory forever remembered by all and eventually open up eyes that long diverted to all the wrong directions. Then again, what's done is done, we can never do nothing about it, now. On the bright side, my luck definitely turning around for the better this time on small receiving of what they-called lucky draw, it wasn't a tremendous humongous gift but enough to ease the devastating feeling of losing the main event. What a night, with all the boys, wish my own team is here with me… on the 7th and 8th of Spetember, hunting away from KL to Kuantan for the yearly event of EPF's Club Treasure Hunt ~*sigh*~

On other occasions… do I need to go along with this? The idea of forever and ever? Do I dare to move? Decision, decision.

Merdeka!

So we are free from the outsider from ruling the country for 48 years now, 31st of August 2005. But, how independent are we in finding our very own values as a nation that should have been different from the others? Where are our own true colours? Come to think of it, things were better off when we are still not freed; we fight for all the good patriotically reason. Now, freedom and independence are took for granted, so, you are in the field waiting for the strike 12, so, you stay in the celebration spot for hours, really, tell me, what were you waiting for? Celebration of independence is nothing but free entertainment worth waiting for with all the people gathers in perhaps the most obnoxious outfits or even with other intentions. I rather like the celebration in smaller scales, staying at the proximity of the hypes, where you can stand still meditated, and asked to ourselves, “What have we done in proclaiming ourselves as a Malaysian I think its time to come together and ponder what have we done and what could have done in searching our own identity as Malaysian and together placing Malaysia in parallel with the developed nations. Malaysia Boleh!

Cornelly love...

If there's only one man that could make any different in my so-called pathetic romantic life, he will be this man... Sounded too ambitious for an ordinary-Muslim-nobody person like me? Well, just to prove my idea of a perfect significant other in the form of a 'rock star', this is it. This is the one. Wonder if he could ever take one glance at me? One meaningful look that could even meant "Who is she?"
If he ever be here, I will definitely be on the very first row... Painfully waiting Like a Stone for yer Mr Cornell.

what are you?

Just like I predicted,
We're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned.
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim 'cause I chose the water that I'm in.
And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this cause there's only one thing I want
If it's not what you're made of, you're not what I'm looking for
You where willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way, you're changing, cause somethings will just never be mine,
You're not love this time ...

extremely mellow

Aku tak mengerti apa yang ku rasa
Rindu yang tak pernah begitu hebatnya
Aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak'kan pernah tahu
Aku persembahkan hidupku untukmu
Telah kurelakan hatiku padamu
Namun kau masih bisu diam seribu bahasa
Dan hati kecilku bicara...
Baru ku sadari, cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan
Kau buat remuk seluruh hatiku
Semoga waktu akan mengilhami isi hatimu yang beku
Semoga akan datang keajaiban...
Yang akhirnya kau pun tau..

Mellow II

In a split seconds, I mean like in a blink of an eye... I found myself flown over to the lighter side of heaven, all credit to Mr Damien... thanks for the lovely melody without doubt. What can I say, got speechless every time... over this:

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the timeAnd so it is
The shorter storyNo love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of youI can't take my mind off youI can't take my mind off of youI can't take my mind off youI can't take my mind off youI can't take my mind...My mind...my mind...'Til I find somebody new

What a coincidence... what a point well said.

Rockin all the way...

Now... who could make "Hit me Baby one more time" so dark, it hurts beautifully...? That's my Marty of Rock Star INXS. I am taking this rock star thing to the next level eh? What can I say... I am falling deeply in love with rockers even more every week. That's about it nw. I want to fly to cloud nine.

Fantasy becomes reality

And so it ends... the predictable has been spoken, the underdog has won it all. What a way of representing a community least likely to make it big in the entertainment world, especially here in Malaysia. Though not a true follower, I managed to experience the most-awaited event by all walks of life in this country. What a waste of money the unbeliever would say, what a waste of time, the academia would complain. I'd say it's just another night spent watching the spectacular that the square box could offer at the expense of no youth would be seen loitering around and no women gossipping in neighbours' house, but, less people in the knowledge house and less followers in religious activities, even less people concerns on the national issue. Then again, the amusement of 'world'ly effects has ended, life back to normal, back to life that is hard to bear, bills getten longer, mouth gotten more to feed, and the magic box just another thing to go home to until the hype started all over again the very next year. Till another fantasy becomes reality, I will dream on for what in store for ME... for my very own 'world' experience.

The Real Rock Star INXS

I know I have been stressing this like too many time it just becomes annoying or totally ridiculous. But, after watching the reality show RockStar INXS yesterday, it just coming back to me... That's what I love and it would be nice to finally have my very own rock star, where I could myself be like Jordis. Simply fabulous! Where and when can I got one? Maybe not in million years, but let me tell you, The only one who can ever reach me is... definitely a rock star. Totally rocking!! Have you watched it? Plese take a peek and at least vote for JD, he's over the top but he can absolutely rockin' it. My personal favorite among the girls will be Jessica Robinson, but she had her tough times, and I will always behind you girl. Jordis is really talented, too bad Neal got voted out! Suzie nailed it with Get back. Brandon got better, Ty just being himself and the rest are unexceptionally beautiful and did a very good job, It will be tough for INXS to send someone home tomorrow night.

What a show.!! On CSI Miami... Why did Speed has to go!!!!!! argh!!!!

Workaholic Tresure Hunter

Been working hard lately, well, if you can call staying up late in the office after office hours and during weekend is hardworking. What a life.. I'd say it's an obligation which I am not very fond of any bit further. The more I wanted to love my job, the more I despise it. I should't feel this way you'd say, but how do I overwrite it? To me, it was hard to define what caused the hatred. Is it the job? the colleague? the boss? the vendors? or completely my own self. If you asked me, I'd say I did with all that I can, other than that, I'd like to blame it on others. Loser.

Well, at least not a total lost. I finally WON something!!!! thanks to my fellow treasure Hunters, We did ended up at 13th places? (13... hmm..) out of 70 cars (closed category) during Putrajaya HUNT 2005 last Saturday. That is an achievement! that is definitely a sign, a sign that the hunting has to go on... for many years to come, for as long as I can barely recognize what fun is. Temporarily over the moon... for now.