The day I got shots

It's exactly one week since I allowed myself to be shot in so many poses...embarassing.. but at the same time... fulfilling...

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The weird feeling

Out of the blue, I uttered these words to my sister last two nights, “I have no whatsoever feelings when I look at men these days”…

Huh?

I know what u r thinking. I wasn’t referring to the act of me confused with my sexual orientation or me going to other side thingy… it’s just, I dunno… it’s weird though. And don’t give me that crap “no, you just haven’t found what I have been looking for”... The thing is, how can I found 'him' when I couldn’t even take a closer look?

Seriously?

The Inconvenience Truth

I am going to tell you a story about the day I was back at the place called Star Hill. Iza got the two free invitations to watch "The Inconvenience Truth" at the KLPac. Since she can't pick the tickets herself because she had to go back to kampung, I volunteered to pick it up for her. There was I with one heavy load on my shoulder just got back from a game (a certain treasure hunting activity) went on to go collect the passes. Still mad at my friend who refused to drop me at the exact place, I planned to leave the bags at the KL central because I needed to be back there to go back home anyway. Found out I need RM1.50 in 50 cents coins for the locker, I go changed the notes, only to find out later that there are no locker available. Dang it! Then, in a build-up fury, I walked on to Monorail Station to just go ahead without further thinking to Bukit Bintang Area and straight to Star Hill Gallery, the YTL Platinum Lounge to be exact. The minute I step in, Star Hill is even more lavish than I remember. All those fury and tiresome slowly diminished. That very moment, I felt calm at the same time I also felt inadequate and out of place. Feel totally like I don't belong, I go ahead speaking in a very good English accent to ask a gentleman who very much looked like a butler about the location of the place I wanted to go... with a very laid back t-shirt and jeans on my body, and a very heavy bags I carried, I walked on like a country girl coming to New York to the club lounge and took a breather in the lounge's sofa... it was a good feeling...


Although the truth is not as inconvenience as the title, the one that matter is the show itself, yes, the show that won the Best Long Documentary in the last 79th Academy Awards. The one about Al Gore and his war to fight the global warming and climate change to the world. The inconvenience Truth. It was definitely a good cause to preach, and an eye opener for me to care for things that matter that I always took for granted. Did I recycle? Hardly, did I use the water and electricity wisely, when I remember, did I ever care about the extinct flora and fauna? The access used of conserved energy. I am indeed one ignorant gal in this matter eh... time to change! Thanks Iza for taking me to the show. owh, did I mention I saw Sheila Majid during the show? Very much pregnant and still gorgeous!

And I need to move

I need to wake up

I need to change

I need to shake up

I need to speak out

Something’s got to break up

I’ve been asleep

And I need to wake up

Now

The Grammy and the Academy

This business of me took a day off work to watch wards show really paid off this year… the Grammy didn’t disappoint me and Oscar is just as wonderful.

The 49th Grammy Awards

Although the Grammy Favorites become clearer each year, I didn’t mind John Mayer win again. Maybe Grammy always amused by the idea of peace on earth, and while Mayer waiting on the world to change, it is obvious that positive energy needed to make all that comes true. Who else can inject that positiveness in all of his/her music other than John Mayer, and the good looks and voice helps a whole lot more.

All other performances are just as entertaining, love John Legend (always do), love Christina Aguilera, who rose above the stage just after brilliant performance from three generations of R&B performers. “It’s a men’s world indeed” and Christina just belted out the right note to fight that! Awesome!

On the favorite genre, ROCK, didn’t really sure I like RHCP wins… but I guess 2006 is their year… so, they deserved it.

O yeah... among all the wins, my favorite was indeed Mary J Blige moments. After all the drama in her life, she deserved it. And her always-outstanding performance never failed to amuse, so, here it goes my newfound love for the woman and her music! No more Drama! (won’t promise that though)

4 hours later, I am exhaustedly satisfied… (hmm…)

The 79th Academy Awards

Firstly, Ellen Degeneres was awesome, the jokes are funny, to Peter O Toole,” you know what they say, three times a charm” hilarious!

On the nominees and winnings, too bad Leo didn’t get to win yet again eh? Still, Forest Whittaker and Helen Mirren did well in both their movies, so, they deserved it. Eddie Murphy’s lost is quite a shock though. It seems to prove drama always won when it comes to best performance in a leading and supporting role. But, Jennifer Hudon won right? It’s her other American dream came true at least? Whatever…

The performances were awesome. Melissa Etheridge won huh? I guess it is time to remind people of the world on the importance of global warming. Suddenly the thought of the land is shrinking is really scary huh?

The Departed won!!!! Yea!!! Hurray!!! So, Leo, it wasn’t all bitterness eh? Congratulations Mr Martin Scorcese, I will really like to act in one of your movies someday… someday…

4 hours later, I am contented and glad I shared the whole day with my mom! Her predictions mostly wrong and I am practically right all the time, so I won! An award for me, the undeniably biggest Hollywood fan in Malaysia... hehehehe.

The things that matter

I guess I am not cut up to whatever I have been preaching lately…

I am not kind to be loved,
I am not entitled for new shoes
I am certainly not a good sister role model

What made me in a very good niche then?

When I am in the company of good music, good movie, and good circle of talented artist… did I ever say I like Mary J Blige? She is definitely a true representative of women's national anthem…

Stay with me baby…

The sisterhood and SHOES!

My sisters and I have that very close bonds, I myself couldn’t even believe it sometime. Watching how they have grown and changed so much made me a little bit worried… that they will not need me altogether. I spend some past weekend catching up with our not-yet-seen DVD, among them, In her Shoes, the sisters’ bond in the story remind me a little bit about us, with a slight different in the brain, i.e. when I am smart, both of them are way smarter... And like Rose Feller would say,

“I really don’t make sense without my sister”.

I really am…

Sad. Suddenly such a bloody rush fills my head when the picture of them leaving me to begin their life with their own family playing on my mind. Well, on top of the moral of the story from the feature, something in that movie made me green with envy, which is… O my God! Did you see the closet full of shoes? I want them! I really want them, and judging by the look on your face boys while you reading this, yes, women do need more than 1 shoe, more than 100 in fact. All those Manolo Blahnik, Jimmy Choo, even plain old ever popular here, VINCCI! Give them shoes to me! Give me! Give me! In the movie again, Rose does make every sense when she said, and I quote;

“Clothes never look any good, and food just makes me fatter, but shoes always fit.”

Shoes do fit every time. Which reminds me, it is about that time for me to buy a new one. And my sisters will definitely agree with me on this… we are in desperate needs of new racks for all those shoes, and now that all of us are working, trust me, you will be amazed at how much shoes we wear… or needed or should have. Hehehe.

So, Atiq and Siti, Hopefully we stay close like this till the end of time, with them shoes and all...

And I quote another beautiful words spoken by Maggie Feller,

I carry your heart with me. I carry it in my heart.
I am never without it.
I want no world, for, beautiful... you are my world, my true.
Here is the deepest secret no one knows.
Here is the root of the root... and the bud of the bud...
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life...
which grows higher than the soul can hope... or mind can hide.
It is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart.
I carry your heart. I carry it in my heart.

The month of LOVE perhaps?

As any given February, the month never seems to bring my attention to other things than amor, cliché as it sounds, and the fact I am not supposed to celebrate the-most-talked-about day in this month, Love does fills my air, even though it doesn’t come from a particular very much visible significant other. The question is, am I doing it just to believe again, or for the heck of enjoying the moments as any other hopeless romantics out there? Well, for whatever reasons I can come out with, I needed that belief system stuck in my heart for me to at least have a decent intimate conversation with someone. I am definitely trying… reaching out to someone, and giving back to the very best that I can.

A little message from the humble heart of mine to all those love devotees/skeptics out there:

1. Flowers are still a nice gestures
2. Love always bring a smile
3. A little attention goes a thousand miles…

Therefore, y’all, work it out, for whatever state of affairs you are in.

The GIG that banned me

Another new resolution for New Year, but seems inappropriate for 1428H, therefore I’ll say it’s for 2007. i.e. more gigs. And who will be next one in town? MUSE….Yes.

my life… you electrify my life…
Let’s conspire to re-ignite…
All the soul that would die just to feel alive

Ok, back to the reason why I am so not amused right now… the fact that the concert is being sponsored by TIGER Beer… caused a disappointment… at least to me, a very much Islamic follower. Turned out that the since TIGER beer or any other form of alcohol substance is a no-no in Islam, we are banned from attending it. Bugger! Although, and I said this hypothetically, there might be those who like to bend the rules, well, I decided to respect it and let it go not-wholeheartedly)… why can’t PEPSI or something sponsoring MUSE? Why? Why?

There you go… a lost to start off a more-gigs-resolution of the year.

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as you would have guessed, currently listening to: (esp STARLIGHT over and over)

The drilling

Took another 3 hours and 15 minutes off the 8 hours routine down at the office, went to start a new resolution for the 1428H, i.e. be involved in trading shares and stuff… so, I opened an account, unfortunately, the process doesn’t take that 3 hours ++ long, so I made an appointment with the dentist.

So, there I was, at the most threatening place to be, on a dentist chair. Recalling all the experiences I had with other dentists previously, I know for sure, when there are no more tears after every treatment, and then I know I have found my most trusted one. Who would have guessed? That trusted one turned out to be my very own flesh and blood, my sister the dentist. After the gruesome drilling and patching and whatever stuff she did inside my mouth, and found out later that I didn’t cry? That’s the greatest feeling to have with addition to the disappearance of the pain. I can now smile painlessly. THANKS atique! (still hurt though.. a good kind a pain...) huh?

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The departed...

As you would have guessed, the title may made you think I am actually still in the award mood, I am not that too involved (yeah right), still cannot believe Leo didn’t win one of the two nominations though…

Anyways, my uncle back to Oman today, after a long holiday in the homeland, Malaysia. It's not like we never see him everytime he’s here, but this time the farewell seem a little too moving. Maybe it's due to the longer time spent at our humble home rather than any other hotels he usually checked himself in. A lot have been talked about and lots of things he helped us out, for all that I am so grateful uncle. Sorry I can’t say it out loud, turned out I am the kind of people who cannot express any emotions out loud… (now I know)

Bye bye sir… see you next summer...