The Depression

Signs and symptoms Bipolar disorder is characterized by an alternating
pattern of emotional highs (mania) and lows (depression). The intensity of the
associated signs and symptoms varies. Bipolar disorder can range from a mild
condition to a severe condition, and there may be periods of normal behavior.
· For many people, signs and symptoms in the manic phase may include:
> Feelings of euphoria, extreme optimism and inflated self-esteem
> Rapid speech, racing thoughts, agitation and increased physical
activity
> Poor judgment
> Recklessness or taking chances not normally taken
> Difficulty sleeping
> Tendency to be easily distracted
> Inability to concentrate
> Aggressive behavior

· In the depressive phase, signs and symptoms include:
> Persistent feelings of sadness, anxiety, guilt or hopelessness
> Disturbances in sleep and appetite
> Fatigue and loss of interest in daily activities
> Problems concentrating
> Irritability
> Chronic pain without a known cause

I have read these in the Sun, I thought I saw the symptoms in me (or displayed by me) at times. Am I? actually having this disorder?

The Travel Wish List

I wrote this while chatting with a friend, it sounded good, and I declared it being an awesome around-the-world travel itinerary. I hope the list will grow soon…And the adventure shall see me:

1… taking my mom to ISTANBUL
2… backpacking in INDIA
3… climbing MT EVEREST
4… sightseeing beautiful EUROPE
5… discover BIG APPLE
6… falling in LOVE in PARIS
7… exploring love in VENICE
8… snow skiing in SWITZERLAND with my kids
9… celebrate my 50th wedding anniversary in EGYPT

Then, I die smiling back in my homeland… the ever truly Asia, MALAYSIA… yezza!

My feet's dancing with the song of Love

It’s sad that these days I can’t just write without thinking too hard. I guess not all things should be put down in writing immediately. Some considerations may help me determined whether things are worthy be obsessed of and be told to the world right after it happened. I am telling this though, a week and a half after it took place.

Went to watch two very different kind of movies this month (well, there is no plan to watch any other). Firstly, the ever so joyful HAPPY FEET, as what Hollywood animation feature had always managed to deliver, this one did, one pure fun entertainment for two hours straight. Mumble and the gang succeeded in making me laugh that weekend.

As Ramon said, “…you did everything penguinly possible.” gotta love that…

Unfortunately, I moved from laughing too hard to actually cry at the movie… yeah, I am unashamedly admit that I weep while watching CINTA (thanks Joj, for the company), among the first mostly anticipated Malay movie I wanted to see so much. A week of obsession over the whole storyline, cinematography gripping every emotions displayed and the soundtrack later, I am cooled off now. It’s just (to me) prove that Malay movie scene can only sell with love-based story again and with that good of presentation, I bought it and it caught my heart good. I am such a sensitive freak.

“A little girl told me, that love is about letting go” I am still trying…

The Engagement

No, it's not mine again...

it's my sister's...

I am exhausted and tired of all the questions...

But my sister's gorgeous... and I am halfway there to feel at ease...

The "Bond"

It's been a while since I am out there watching movie in the actual cinema. And then the anticipated action flick comes to the big screen again. The known suave spy of all time is blasting the cinema again, to woo the ladies with his dashing looks and smooth moves, to be a hero and save the world. To me, this year’s double 0 seven is a little bit different; more modern, rebellious, lots of x-factor and most importantly; more appealing to me! heh. Thanks to two particular individuals or rather organizations, I got to watch it twice; two nights in a row and free! Talking about haven’t been out there spending night out in movie cinema, it seems like a revenge… well, it’s not, it’s just so happened that CASINO ROYALE is worthy of getting people to watch for free. And guess what? After all that, I just won another two movie tickets to watch… yes, CASINO ROYALE… hehehe… As tempted as I want to watch it again and stare at those blue gorgeous eyes of Daniel Craig the, James Bond, I might give those to my friend… honestly…

Gorgeous!

Having said all that, I definitely can’t wait for the next installment of James Bond’s movie coming to our movie screen so I can be amused again. Until then, it’s time for me, Jones, Diana Jones signing out for this week.

The Movie Date

And so the date is on. Yes, my very own celebrity movie-date with the one and only Mr. ANUAR ZAIN. We had a blast, taking pictures, talking face to face and actually witnessed how thin he really is. He is as friendly as we were expected, you know, being a celebrity and all. He sings my favorite song “keabadian cinta”, mingle around every fifteen minutes, the night were almost perfect until the chance to sit next to him perished to some lucky girl who won the draw. Still hoping I could win the grand prize to go for a trip to Hollywood with him. Second time always a charm? ;-)

Anuar Zain and I happy to be with each other ;-)

O, and the movie- CASINO ROYALE? AWESOME! Daniel Craig definitely my favorite Bond despite the critics he got! Good job James! With the addition we got to sit in the Gold Class Cinema, (imagine your own OSIM chair in front of a big plasma TV on daily basis) That's exactly how i felt! a Total relax and unwine thingy going on... gotta buy me one each ofthose things one day... ;-)

The pain in the heart and mind

The last entry had got me thinking long and hard. How was I so naïve in believing everything these people (being the married men) were self-professing to me? I should have known better from lots of stories told about similar circumstances.

The truth really is… they are full load of craps. How did I fall into that act of declaring eternal love to one but keep on loving another and continue producing those offspring like there’s no guilty conscience? Crap!

Screw all the sweet talking comportment. They were just meant to prolong my already melancholic love life. Such an embarrassment!

The Affair?

Letting go is hard. Especially when the person we once loved refuse to quit us (sounds familiar? Hehehe). Other than occasional text messages sent, the calls he made once in a while made it even harder, as it leave me in the position where I am neither move on or finally give it a rest. If you were keeping track of my life story, he’s the same so-called my true love whom I wished married to me, and yes, he still in love with me (or so I told) that I told you before.

The last phone conversation we had which is very recently made me cried so hard and missed him so much. The reminiscing moment was just too painful.

So, can this be called an affair? At least not to me, because I can only share that tiny part of his heart that mostly his wife’s now, I never wanted to break off any marriage. One may seems it is unfair but it is fair enough for me.

Then again, it is probably just my crazy way of thinking and living my life.

The Wedding

No, not mine… but a very close person in my heart: My Best Friend’s Wedding. As much as I wanted to help in any way I can, I managed to spend the whole three days helping her out if not so much. I was on leave on Friday, and just when I started to roll in with the position as the bridesmaid, my car got knocked down on the Federal Highway, bugger! And Noura, being the noble person that she always is, she helped us out to send the car to USJ. How can I not spend the next 36 hours helping her out after that!

We were late for picking up the wedding outfits, nevertheless we managed to complete the to-do list for that day, including all the flowers purchases etc.

The-Day:
The Mak Andam beautifully fixed the brides in the morning for Nikah, and the ceremony went well despite the very long ceramah by the Tok Imam, good knowledge being preached though. With all the new information that has been lectured, it was definitely something to take with me in the future.

Overall, the event (in both sides) was tiring at the same time, gorgeously well celebrated and not to forget a very emotional one for me. Felt like I have lost a part of myself that always kept me collected in this life. I know it’s silly because I will definitely still be in touch with her… it’s just… different.

Whatever reason I have, CONGRATULATIONS my friend for following the circle of life into another phase called marriage. Be a good wife, a good partner and a best friend. Like I said,

“…you managed to deal with our friendship, with a very difficult person like me, you WILL go through this beautifully like you always does in any situations”

It does make sense right?

The Towering Experience

Remember when Gwyneth Paltrow's father told her that the best thing a good man will do for his favorite lady in his life is bringing her to Paris at least once...

"the view from the KL tower"

In my case... to have almost the same experience here in our beloved hometown is to have that dining experience at our very own skycraper, The KL Tower. Although it wasn’t a man who took me, my best friend who invited me for lunch there made it an unforgettable experience I will definitely cherish. The buffet? Was so very delicious one!

We were there to spend the very little time left for her to end the single hood la la land. And I am glad we got to had that experience before she’s off to that entrapment called marriage… ops! no offense to all married people… I am just kidding…

p/s: I am so full! Burp!